The last thing I expected from art is to face handing over the control. But the best art times I had and hope to have more in future are when I am not the commander of the creative process. There are moments when I am able to throw planning and wishing out of the window and become a part of magic. This process is possible when the degree of freedom is allowed but ironically that freedom is gained when I achieved certain level of skills that allowed for experimentation, diversion from rules as a choice rather than limitation. It also helped me to get more clarity on type of creator I am naturally, where my gifts are more likely to be used and come close to authentic expression.