I was painting for few hours, learning about new paints via the beauty of experiment and failure when I sat for a moment at my desk. I glazed at the canvas and that statement just appeared from nowhere: Art is about finding a different reality...I realised all my creative processes been a lot about finding new way of expression that never existed before. There is a very little in my art about depicting the reality, picture or an object. I am finding realistic still life at the moment totally uninspiring. It may all change but at that very moment art is about finding the different reality... .
In his short document "I need color" Jim Carrey is saying a lot about his connection with painting, art and colour. And I get it. He needs colour. I need to throw colour. Literally "throw" and visually too. Many of my quick "emotional release" entries in journals or on paper, canvases are the effect of combined colour and dynamism in application of it. Wonder about the process? Carry on reading.
There are moments when I need to be in the presence of the paint. Sometimes after long days left with drained soul I open up art room's doors just to breath the smell of paint- grabbing quickly a paintbrush and making a stroke on the canvas or paper is transforming the reality. Awareness of that therapeutic power of paint and its strong sensory aspect became clear to me some time ago once being involved into abstracts work. I never expected it to be this way, but saying that I never expected to be an artist some times ago!
There are moments of quietness in creative life. Moments when paint doesn’t flow so well from the brush and we pause. The power of pausing and honouring it has been recently very important to me. I think as artists we do grow once we have learnt lessons of pausing. By stopping I do not mean stop creating but rather stepping on side and reflecting back on why we are feeling urge to slow down. The power of pause has a lot to do with transition in many ways of art and personal development interfacing with each other. Recently my art pause is about transition to new interest and inspiration…That is what I am hoping it is about but who knows for sure...
Sometimes we need to allow others to enter our space, maybe not in terms of invasion but kind of allowing for the step forward. It is not only people we allow to take the space -it could be emotions, processes, thoughts. We like to protect our space- the way it is and the way we shape it. Imagine you never allowed others into your space- how lonely would that be? Without memories, personal entries, ups and downs of relationships...A bit empty and bit boring I suppose...So life is shaped by our space being visited by others-that reflection came to my mind when I was creating recently in a collaborative way with another artist present at the same time. So 2 people, 2 different visual styles but...1 piece of paper! What happened?
“Some items can move us in time- from now to old past- we find our souls yearning for lost joy, time, sensations and experiences.”
Have you ever come across an object from your childhood that you almost forgot about for years and suddenly it transported you into the world of so many memories that it became a time traveling tool? Sometimes it is just a smell of something you remember, or the actual object-more material thing. I had this experience with some art materials from my childhood. I was gifted a traditional Polish drawing pad and found here in England gouache paints that are almost like poster paints I remember from 80ties in Poland. I touched that paper, I smelled the paint, dipped the brush in water and then in the paint... The mark was made on paper and…boom! I was transported in time!
As creativity gradually shifted me from work in a solitude mode (that I still love) more towards work with people I noticed that some stories are being told many times. Many people find themselves and their creativity in the moment of life when they search for..themselves. Like years of playing role of not fully aligned with their inner desire, they got tired of it and looked for lost treasure of creativity to bring the core aliveness back to them. We not talking only about people experiencing existential crisis of middle age, nearly retired or those with empty nest syndrom. Yes them to,o but also a big chunk of people from diverse environments, age groups, life situations and beliefs that suddenly stopped, turned their head back and asked- why and how do I find myself again? So they had opened to possibilities of self-creativity in order to find the lost authenticity regardless how long ago it seemed to be missing from. However as they embarked the intensive search for themselves to fully find the true self, they have to loose the ego of self...The paradox of true creativity!
When my daughter is given a set of Lego there is a creative battle in the house. Her mother (me!) never wants to follow any instructions to build what is showed on the box...and Lego doll's hair may be replaced with horse's tail. People with that mindset are called in Lego movie "master builders" as they build from their imagination, heart and passion rather than instructions. Are you one of them? Visual art is watched outside but comes from inside. The process requires a journey from what is deeply rooted in imagination to what we can actually see- colours, shapes, lines, the whole visual aspect. Making art that becomes your healing process is really about what is going on in your mind rather than what comes out. If you treat your creative process as something personal and having impact on your mental state, then start the journey from that direct source- your mind. Become the master builder...
You may look at some art work and "get it" or stare at hundreds other pictures and forget them next minute. Some visual content is just hitting our heart or simply not. They may be artists who paint one thing over and over for 20 years and never have enough, others are attached to colour, develop specific style. It is all about visual language- that language with no sound but stronger than a shout. Language that exists in you and maybe wants to scream- do you know how to find it?
If you have been creating art journals for a while you probably know by now that the most satisfying part of the process is working from your heart and using creative communication as a tool of expression. Visual journaling is far more than just creating "pretty pages". It has gone from that trend to "raw" journaling- pages are packed with intensity and deep thought. That intensity can also spread further into canvases, painted boards, altered objects, assemblage. Intensity is something that evokes mixed emotions very often. Why? Is it too much? Shall there be a limit or maybe art should stick to "pretty things"? Intensity is not controlled hence the reason for its low popularity? Either is creativity-flying far away from any form of control on crazy wings of freedom...