The last thing I expected from art is to face handing over the control. But the best art times I had and hope to have more in future are when I am not the commander of the creative process. There are moments when I am able to throw planning and wishing out of the window and become a part of magic. This process is possible when the degree of freedom is allowed but ironically that freedom is gained when I achieved certain level of skills that allowed for experimentation, diversion from rules as a choice rather than limitation. It also helped me to get more clarity on type of creator I am naturally, where my gifts are more likely to be used and come close to authentic expression.
There are few creative courses that I designed myself that focus on exploration of variety of art mediums and approaches to the creative process. It often leaves me puzzled when people feel like they must choose and master one medium and close the eyes for anything else. Sure mastering one is a great route to high skill level but when we just want to explore , try things out, when we want to play and use expressive arts therapeutically rather than as end of result orientated way, we can easily give ourselves permission to try and fail with pleasure.
How do I draw? The thing is I fall in love from the first marks and lines I put on the paper. My art from the early stages of creation must draw me in with intensity and attraction. Drawing must draw me in. I was wondering about this process and how do we approach creating art. Are we attached to this first line or do we move towards creation of the final marks?
Last year was the time for me becoming more and more community artist that I imagined. Some new connections and contracts meant I started regular delivery of expressive arts session to diverse groups of people. What I did not predict was the impact it would have on my own awareness and understanding how art is needed in communities.
Human life is built around forming connections, changing them, reforming, disconnection and re-creating new connections. As daily flow of life goes by it is never static. Dynamism of life, its passing and transformative nature is something essential of every human experience. I put my drawing through a sewing machine recently to explore how connections can be recreated and what the consequences are of losing certain connection for creating new, not existing before reality. ...
Some people say “why create?”, “What is the point of creating when you not at level of top masters?” I would say “Why not to create?” and secondly if you love cakes and still wonder how your mum made this apple pie would you deprive yourself from eating it because it was not baked at some kind of “top, posh bakery”? The point of creating has really very little to do with human concept of commercialised “success”. Creating is a different dimension, level of existing that simply doesn’t fit our pre-programmed by social expectations minds. ...
Painting never stops for me, never makes me bored and always lead me to explore more. Without painting there would be no sense to life, no art either meaning. Once you start truly painting it becomes or you become unstoppable. After my still ongoing exploration of colourful and dynamic inner landscapes abstracts I am slowly moving towards exploration of life through medium of painting of series focusing on…wonders of paint in figurative inspired subject matter. ...
I was painting for few hours, learning about new paints via the beauty of experiment and failure when I sat for a moment at my desk. I glazed at the canvas and that statement just appeared from nowhere: Art is about finding a different reality...I realised all my creative processes been a lot about finding new way of expression that never existed before. There is a very little in my art about depicting the reality, picture or an object. I am finding realistic still life at the moment totally uninspiring. It may all change but at that very moment art is about finding the different reality... .
In his short document "I need color" Jim Carrey is saying a lot about his connection with painting, art and colour. And I get it. He needs colour. I need to throw colour. Literally "throw" and visually too. Many of my quick "emotional release" entries in journals or on paper, canvases are the effect of combined colour and dynamism in application of it. Wonder about the process? Carry on reading.
There are moments when I need to be in the presence of the paint. Sometimes after long days left with drained soul I open up art room's doors just to breath the smell of paint- grabbing quickly a paintbrush and making a stroke on the canvas or paper is transforming the reality. Awareness of that therapeutic power of paint and its strong sensory aspect became clear to me some time ago once being involved into abstracts work. I never expected it to be this way, but saying that I never expected to be an artist some times ago!